Frustrated

Back to the cycling today - it wasn't pretty. I started off well, but after about 30km and a break for an energy bar, I hit the wall. The 2 people that I usually ride with are leagues above me when it comes to being in shape - one of them has been cycling since they were 7 (and is now in his 50's) and the other has been doing it for over a year and is obsessive about working out. Me - I have a whole lot of wine, bread, and chocolate to burn off after my trip.

So when we hit a few hills on the way home, I felt like my body just wouldn't move. I made it up each hill, but I must have looked pathetic. And my buddies were way ahead of me. And then the negative thoughts almost defeated me. Am I actually going to be ready for our cycling adventure in 5 weeks? We're planning on 100km a day for 4 days straight! What was I thinking? I still managed 60km today, but it's painful how out of shape I am.